Prayer = The Best therapy

I was really angry when I walked into my room. I wanted to slam the door, kick the walls, and throw all the decoration on the floor. But I knew I could not make a sound. I could not slam the door for then I would be asked, " why did you slam the door? Are you angry... I know you are. Why is that so? Why do you get angry for no reason? You will never change, nor have you ever tried to change yourself.. (and so on)."
I threw the decoration from the dresser on the floor, careful not to make any sound... heavier things, I just put on the floor softly... I took the laundry basket and spread all the clothes throughout the room, I even undid the bed and threw all the pillows etc all around (yes, I could throw them because they do not make any sound!).
Bottom line: It did not help, it did not help at all. And I sat in a corner, furious with rage...

Then I opened my computer and tried to do my homework... I tried to memorize the benzene reactions, but only angry words came out of my mouth.

I tried to call my mother, to vent all the anger on her, but thanks to t-mobile, there were no signals so the call did not go through. 

I sat as I remembered something that I was told long ago; Remembrance of God helps people overcome their anger. 

I performed ablution and stood on the prayer rug. For the first few minutes, I was just saying my prayer with all my anger whirling at the back of my mind... then I started calling God, in a louder voice... I tried to muffle the angry sounds in my head through my words... and a miraculous thing happened.

All my anger just went away... It just evaporated in a fraction of a second.... everything changed, hatred changed into love, I started praying for those whom I had been cursing a minute ago, my heart filled with joy and content... I FELT HAPPY...

Today, I have experienced prayer, as I had never experienced it before. It is beautiful, and it is natural... instinctive, as your mind and body accept it, it accepts you... it is the best therapy... it calms the body and the soul. It takes you into a world free of everyday struggles, it lets you focus on the bigger picture of life... what is life and why are we here? 

This is a start, but I am sure I can rekindle my relationship with God (who is so nice, and loves us 70 times more than our mothers)... and then I can find the answer to the ever present question; Why do I exist?